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Monday, May 28, 2007

I'm so friggin' obsessed with Phantom of the Opera songs.

Think of Me
CHRISTINE
Think of me think of me fondly,when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -please promise me you'll try.
FIRMIN
Andre, this is doing nothing for my nerves.
ANDRE
Don't fret, Firmin.
CHRISTINE
When you find that, once again, you long to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,spare a thought for me
(Transformation to the Gala. CHRISTINE is revealed in full costume)
We never said our love was evergreen,or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember stop and think of me . . .
Think of all the things we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things which might have been . . .
Think of me,think of me waking,silent and resigned.
Imagine me,trying too hard to put you from my mind.
Recall those days look back on all those times,think of the things we'll never do-
there will never be a day, when I won't think of you . .
(Applause, bravos. Prominent among the bravos, those of the young RAOUL in the MANAGERS' box)
RAOUL
Can it be?
Can it be Christine?Bravo!
(he raises his opera-glasses)
What a change!
You're really not a bit the gawkish girl that once you were...
(lowering his opera-glasses)
She may not remember me, but I remember her...
CHRISTINE
We never said our love was evergreen,or as unchanging as the sea -
but please promise me,that sometimes you will think of me

Angel of Music
MEG
Where in the world have you been hiding?
Really, you were perfect!
I only wish I knew your secret!
Who is this new tutor?
CHRISTINE (abstracted, entering the dressing room)
Father once spoke of an angel . . .
I used to dream he'd appear . . .
Now as I sing,I can sense him . . .
And I know he's here . . .
(trance-like)
Here in this room he calls me softly . . .
somewhere inside . . .
hiding . . .
Somehow I know he's always with me . . .
he - the unseen genius . . .
MEG (uneasily)
Christine, you must have been dreaming . . .
stories like this can't come true . . .
Christine, you're talking in riddles . . .
and it's not like you . . .
CHRISTINE (not hearing her, ecstatic)
Angel of Music!
Guide and guardian!
Grant to me your glory!
MEG (to herself)
Who is this angel?This . . .
BOTH
Angel of Music!
Hide no longer!
Secret and strange angel . . .
CHRISTINE (darkly)
He's with me, even now . . .
MEG (bewildered)
Your hands are cold . . .
CHRISTINE
All around me . . .
MEG
Your face, Christine,it's white . . .
CHRISTINE
It frightens me . . .
MEG
Don't be frightened . . .
(THEY look at each other The moment is broken by the arrival of GIRY)

Phantom of the Opera
CHRISTINE
In sleep he sang to me
In dreams he came
That voice which calls to me
And speaks my name
And do I dream again?
For now I find
The phantom of the opera is there,
Inside my mind
PHANTOM
Sing once again with me
Our strange duet
My power over you
Grows stronger yet
And though you turn from me to glance behind
The phantom of the opera is there
Inside your mind
CHRISTINE
Those who have seen your face
Draw back in fear
I am the mask you wear
PHANTOM
It's me they hear
BOTH
My/Your spirit and my/your voice
In one combined
The phantom of the opera is there inside my/your mind
CHORUS
Is that the phantom of the opera?
Beware the phantom of the opera
PHANTOM
In all your fantasies you always knew
That man and mystery
CHRISTINE
Were both in you
BOTH
And in this labrinth
Where night is blind
The Phantom of the opera is here/there
CHRISTINE
Inside my mind
PHANTOM
Sing, my Angel of Music!
CHRISTINE
He's there, the Phantom of the Opera . .


Music of the Night
I have brought you to the seat of sweet music's throne . . .
to this kingdom where all must pay homage to music . . .
music . . .
You have come here,for one purpose,and one alone . . .
Since the momentI first heard you sing,I have needed you with me,to serve me, to sing,for my music . . .
my music . . .
(changing mood)
Night-time sharpens,heightens each sensation . . .
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination . . .
Silently the senses abandon their defences . . .
Slowly, gently night unfurls its splendour . . .
Grasp it, sense it -tremulous and tender . . .
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light -and listen tothe music of the night . . .
Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!
Close your eyes,let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live as you've never lived before . . .
Softly, deftly,music shall surround you . . .
Feel it, hear it,closing in around you . . .
Open up your mind,let your fantasies unwind,in this darkness which you know you cannot fight -the darkness ofthe music of the night . . .
Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world!
Leave all thoughtsof the world you knew before!
Let your soul Take you where you long to be !
Only then can you belong to me . . .
Floating, falling,sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin,let your darker side give in to the power of the music that I write -the power of the music of the night . . .
(During all this, the PHANTOM has conditioned CHRISTINE to the coldness of his touch and her fingers are brave enough to stray to his mask and caress it, withno hint of removing it. The PHANTOM leads her to a large mirror from which he removes a dust cover and in which we see the image of CHRISTINE, a perfect wax- face impression, wearing a wedding gown. CHRISTINEmoves slowly towards it when suddenly the image thrusts its hands through the mirror towards her She faints. The PHANTOM catches her and carries her to the bed, where he lays her down.)
PHANTOM
You alone can make my song take flight -
help me make the music of the night . .

All I ask of You
RAOUL
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,let daylight dry -your tears.
I'm here,with you, beside you,to guard you and to guide you . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me with you,now and always . . .
promise me that all you say is true -
that's all I ask of you . . .
RAOUL
Let me be your shelter,let me be your light.
You're safe:No-one will find you
your fears are far behind you . . .
CHRISTINE
All I want is freedom,a world with no more night . . .
and you always beside meto hold me and to hide me . . .
RAOUL
Then say you'll share with me onelove, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you from your solitude . . .
Say you need me with you here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,let me go too -
Christine,that's all I ask of you . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime . . .
say the word and I will follow you . . .
BOTH
Share each day with me, each night, each morning . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .
RAOUL
You know I do . . .
BOTH
Love me -that's all I ask of you . . .(They kiss)
Anywhere you go let me go too . . .
Love me -that's all I ask of you . .
(CHRISTINE starts from her reverie)
CHRISTINE
I must go -they'll wonder where I am . . .wait for me, Raoul!
RAOUL
Christine, I love you!
CHRISTINE
Order your fine horses!Be with them at the door!
RAOUL
And soon you'll be beside me!
CHRISTINE
You'll guard me, and you'll guide me . . .
(They hurry off. The PHANTOM emerges from behind the statue)

Andrew Lloyd Webber is a genius.

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

My spine hurts.

Today was another slacking day for me I didnt do anything much except sleep and I slept with my head on the computer chair. While sitting on the floor. Now my spine hurts WHEN I MOVE MY HEAD!!

Gawd am I dumb or what... Lol.. I also love to sleep upside down, been a habit for me since young. Maybe that's why I look so youthful. With yoga enthusiasts promoting the upside-down posture cos it induces blood rushing into the head. Euphoria experienced. Wahaha.

Maybe my blood has learnt to rush to my head even when I'm upright, hence inducing a sense of euphoria; that makes me laugh out loud for no reason sometimes. Like that cute baby below:



I love her to bits. This is my darling baby KY =] Now she's older and more active and cuter too!!

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Monday, May 21, 2007

Was extremely bored.. And didnt want to do my work.. So I doodled freehand on my shoe.. Lookey below:


The finished shoe.. Only drew on the right shoe..


My muses: Lyrics sheet, black marker, blank throw-away-shoe-wannabe and moolah (for new shoe)


The close-up: xBobbyCx is my maplestory nick, the heart-shape was what my cousin drew on another cousin's hand.. the word on the top right are reworded "Music of the Night" lyrics, the 'tree' on the left was just there to fill up the empty space..


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Sunday, May 20, 2007

Ytd met two of my cousins to go ECP. Mum fetched us there and back, with her friend.. and mum treated us to dinner and them to ice cream. Den we went to my other auntie's house where we met her kids and another cousin.. Lol so I met cousins from 4 other families in one day. That was a good day.

Den YX who's in the same poly as me, he was also, like, complaining about our poly system. Throwing all the work to us at such a short notice, throwing tests and exams haphazardly. And first day back to school (nxt week's elearning, supposed to stay at home), both of us have tests. Hallelujah!! -.-""

[this has been reviewed]

That brings me back to the topic : IS POLY OR JC BETTER??? I change my tack. The way I wrote my last post seemed to be saying that poly students are lower class than jc students. No they are not, and I dont mean this. But thing is, since majority of JC students are from chij and all that, maybe our wavelength (ie the stuff we like to talk about) is more similar (compared to poly students). Maybe. And also, another thing is that I think most JC students will speak more english so it could be another reason why I relate better to them too. And JC teaches us English too. And Chinese (which was why I chose poly over JC..) I wish to improve my english more..

[hope this sounds better]

I think JC might be better in that sense, and also that JC life is kinda sheltered.. the system is so similar to sec school and pri school. Those ppl are still 'babied' in a sense. No studies culture shock over at JC. Homework is forced back from students so the teachers can mark them, we are not allowed to 'ponteng' lessons for no reason (except MC). I think I shoulda have juz stuck to JC. But I made this choice..

But poly also has a good point, that is being that I can juz dye my hair, paint nails, have earrings etc. Poly is kinda slack wiht our dressing lols. Can just wear berms and slippers. Casual wear. I juz started wearing these this year only. Haha.. Might as well enjoy the last year in poly. I'm making use of the library too.

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Thursday, May 17, 2007

My problem with Chinese. Aaaahh!! I'm so fed-up. Everyone in my class keeps speaking Chinese!! My friend's class speaks Chinese!!

When doing FYP, my group mates speak Chinese!! The lab tech speaks Chinese!! Even some of my teachers speak Chinese to our class people when we happen to meet outside lessons!!

AAAAAAHHHHH I'm so fed-up. I can't catch up. I can't speak and think and understand Chinese at the speed of light. I can't catch up. That makes me even more blur. -.-"" I hate this.

ONE more year. ONE more year of not knowing what's going on around me.. NOOOOOOOO

I have to use my natural intelligence to juz tikam what ppl are saying around me.. Sometimes I get right, sometimes, wrong.. And the wrong.. sometimes is totally out. Ugh.

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Today we did media prep in lab for our FYP. Fun nia. Cos I quite like making media. Haha.. But our stock ended up wrong cos, the stupid pH meter sot-sot one, pH 6.sth, even lab tech see as 8.sth. Oops. I should hv gone to see also, cos from certain angle can see the exact number on the display... =XX partly my fault la.

We added HCl (wanted to lower the '8.sth' to 7.2) and NaOH (to increase the 5.sth we got after adding HCl) when we should have only added NaOH. Salt imbalance le!!!!! Den our media wrong le. Need to ask YF for frozen DMEM media from the last FYP batch.. AAAAAHHH. Our animal cells cannot tahan salt imbalance. H+, Cl-, Na+ and OH- ions.

Den after we packed up our stuff, waited for the other FYP group under the same supervisor as us. During the waiting period I took Matt's perm marker to draw on the C-fold towel.. And no ink came out.. So I shook it real hard. I freaking shook it!!! And what happened??!?!?!?!

OMG, I splattered the WHOLE table with permanent ink. And my entire arm too!! Okay Okay, I'm exaggerating. But one portion of the table had ink splatters.. My arm also had.. Luckily nobody's homework or pencil case was in the vicinity. I used up 4 C-fold towels and LOTS of ethanol to remove the stains. Now there are still some very very faint stains on the otherwise-sparkling-clean-white table. All my fault!! And the lab is brand new too!!! =XX

In fact, the entire building - T11A - is brand new, entire thing all labs and some lecturers' rooms too. Our batch of Year Three students are the first batch to use this new building..

And so soon it had been tainted.. By me..

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

This is a real cool comic!! Got it from my cousin.

What an evil SANTA

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

Emo sucks.

Emily, were u ever emo? Ur blog says so but I cant believe it. You, the gal who's always so happy, so cheerful and hyperactive? The gal who'd kiss me on the mouth and say Je t'aime? (joking about the last part la)

Ehh you're so cool you know! :) Your nail polish, your eyeliner, your smirk, your chor lor ness. hahahaa... And i love your bedroom!! Your house too. So nice lei. I like your snakes too. But I prefer my gym. Hahaa.. Ya I want to bbq soon kie.. And you muz come over to hv sleepover party. Ask ur sis along too, and ur bro can bunk in with mine.

I got a new haircut and dyed my hair green you know! That's the cool part about being in poly, they allow anything. I remember telling you about this guy who had a 5cm-tall mohawk which he dyed shocking red.



I like this eye. So nice hor.. Super eyeliner. But Jack Sparrow's de nicer. Can you do it w/o making me look punched-in-the-eye?


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This is sooo freak, manz..

I dont have Microsoft Word!!! My lappy has no MicOffice stuff at all, how am I to do my homework? I cant even type my datasheet already!!

No Microsoft Word, okay, fine. I can install it, no sweat.. But of all times, my Mic Word Installation CD had to go missing! Mum said we have one, I dont know if we really have, or if that was just a figment of her imagination. Maybe she wished so much that we had one, so she doesnt have to spend more money on another CD, that she actually THOUGHT we have one. OOhh I hate this thingy. This thingy which gives me bad luck and lets me not be able to find my stuff!

I already got used to my desktop not having Adobe Photoshop. But I cant get used to my lappy not having any Microsoft Office things. I need Word to type things, I need Excel once in awhile and Ppt for projects. And I got a lappy so my bro and I can use com at the same time.

RAH!! Sorry for my stupid rantings..

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Friday, May 11, 2007

I have a fascination with movie characters, only not with the actors themselves. For example, L from Death Note, not Ken'ichi Matsuyama; Legolas from LOTR, not Orlando Bloom; Jack Sparrow from Pirates, not Johnny Depp; and now Peter Parker a.k.a Spidey from Spiderman, not Tobey Maguire.

I watched Spiderman3 today. (Alex!! It's soo coincidental you also watched it on the same day as me! And the same too, with DN, seems like we watched it in the same week, tho DN is a relatively 'old' show.)

Actually I wasnt that excited over it (Spiderman3), since I'm not a spidey-fan, but heck, my cousin booked the ticket for me, can I say no??? But we repaid his fee for our tickets by buying loads of tidbits and drinks. My bag was loaded with 5 packs of potato chips! And 2 packs of sweets. -.-"

Spidey 3 is cool, cos some of the effects, eg of Peter streaking along the sides of skyscrapers is really, really, and I mean, REALLY exhilarating. I got a glimpse into the world that I never would be part of. And a glimpse of something that I would never ever dare to do. See, I'm afraid of heights. Stupid, really, but I'm still scared. Dont ever make me do the Flying Fox, I would juz scream.. Ack. and the abseiling we had to do in the Sec3 camp. Damn freaky.

I loved it when the black alien-ey thing took over Peter, and he became, the dark, mysterious, broody and evil guy, that I LIKE. Hell, sometimes I juz like bad guys, I have no idea why. They juz have the allure over me. The power.

:) And yea, well, I have the spidey front page collectable from the magazine FIRST. I just loved the effects, and I HAD TO HAVE IT. Furthermore, there was this Pirates 3 poster inside. 8 BUCKS! But heck, since I dont spend money on these kinda stuff all the time, I JUST HAD TO BUY IT!!

So I bot it. But I dont have those really cool, plastic/glass thingy for my posters, which I can juz screw onto my wall. Those stuff can really make my room look like that of a movie fanatics. If I had it, I think my room'd be really nice. But my room is so damn small.

I'm waiting for Pirates, now. I'd gladly take any Pirates merchandise, esp. if associated with Jack Sparrow.

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Wednesday, May 09, 2007

I feel so repulsant.

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Monday, May 07, 2007

Today one of my friends mentioned that my blog was soo emo (emotional). After careful thought, I think it is, lei. Actually arh, I already thot it was emo, but I still decided to continue with my emo posts, anyway. Cos I’m already so crazy here, might as well go the whole hog eh? Plus my blog is there for me to type whatever I want, so emo or not, is my choice nia.

I think I'd be abit siao ding-dong without my blog. I dont like not being able to express myself or not talking. My blog is here for me to express myself. I express myself by writing tho I'm not any J.K. Rowling. And also by crapping the shit out of my friends.. I love to freak HR out by staring at her or using my freaky misty spooky voice at 7pm in the MRT train (she gets freaked out by that, can you believe it??) BOO HUIRU!!

Tho what’s written on my blog doesn’t seem to reflect me, (cos my posts are so emo and I’m so stoned all the time) can I just say that all these posts are really and truly written by yours truly? I really feel that much and think that much. And i do care about what ppl think about me. (I mean, those I know, la. Those whom I dont know, I dont care) I dont know why. Weird hor?

Ok, now I tell you about my feelings in school - abit lonely la. But can do la. Cos all I have to do now is tell myself to learn to be independent (tho I cant hear well) and learn to get used to loneliness. Sad thing la, but still hor, we are humans ma. Sometimes get left alone for God knows what reasons. Because we're too fat, too ugly, too low self-esteem? Dono la.

Plus hor, my free times now are spent in the SP library. Watching DVDs and surfing net. Quite a good life. So long as the exams dont come too soon, I'll be very happy le. But I really dont like Mondays and Tuesdays cos of the long days and practicals and cant go back with HuiRu. And I'm starting to dislike wednesdays because of OC (Oral Communication) I really suck at that. Can't present well and articulate well =XX KNS la. HAHAA..

Aiya.. I will go and do my work now. And I will stop using all the "la's", "lei" etc etc. I dont want to be a pure-blooded Singlish-ey Singaporean. I want to speak Queen's English. LOLS

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Friday, May 04, 2007

On a happier note, I watched Death Note 1 on Wednesday, and Death Note 2 today.


It's so nice!! Now I know why people like Death Note. The show really makes us think, and makes me really admire the Light Yagami (Kira) and Ryuzaki (L). Death Note - think MIND GAMES.


Light (left) and Ryuzaki (right)

Geniuses. I really don't know how they can find clues in something so simple and so.. ordinary. I don't know how Light can think of such far-sighted plans which save his life and all that, how Ryuzaki can guess every single detail down pat just by thinking. Light is such a meticulous and quick-thinking fella, can think of ways to get out of tight spots. Heh.


The two geniuses pitting chess skills. Light checkmated.

Wowee. Wish I was born a genius. Wish I had their IQ.

Wish I could eat just like Ryuzaki does. I have a sweet tooth too. I love eating sugar by the packet. I love my drinks sweet. I love marshmallows, chocolate, lollipops. But den I put on weight when I eat too much. I think it'll be great if my last meal could be my favourite bar of chocolate. Hahaha.

Ryuzaki is sort of my favourite character in that show, cos I find him so cute. Light is also cute, and I'm on his side. But Ryuzaki is cuter, la. I like his pale skin, messy hair, simple clothes, the way he holds things (kiap with two fingers), and the way he ate his potato chips while staring at Light (at the end of DN1)


Kiap handphone and lollipop


Ryuzaki in front of the monitors surveilling Light Yagami at his home


Ryuzaki with his bag of potato chips

Ugh someone titled that picture above: " most kissable scene in movie ". Hey I like Ryuzaki.. But not to that extent.. HAhaa


Little Boy

I like little boys. I mean, adults who are kids at heart. Lol.


Ken'ichi Matsuyama - he looks so different.. looks better in the movie

Some other characters: I like Watari and Misa too. Watari is the kind of faithful helpful old man I like. Pity at the end he..


Misa is so cute lei. Hahaha.. Actually I couldnt stand her in the first show, acting cute for 'Happy Sweets'. But then I started to like her in the second show.



Hmm 'Kira' works towards eliminating all criminals in the world. I don't see what's wrong with that. Cos, after all, these criminals have done unforgivable things and they are unrepentant. Unremorseful. They should get their just desserts. But then again death would be too light a sentence for them sia. Better still if give them life imprisonment. So they get to suffer for the heinous crimes they have committed. LOLS!


HuiRu borrowed Phantom of the Opera for me. I wanna watch it soon. Perhaps tml ba, when we meet. Yay. Oh ya, and yesterday watched abit of WhaleRider. Seems like I'm in the movie mood now. And hope can watch Spiderman3 on May11.. And Pirates of the Caribbean I love Captn Jack Sparrow! @.@ (not Johnny Depp, mind you)



For Hui Ru: Here Light looks like Ohno lei.


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Tuesday, May 01, 2007

he was such a healthy guy.. so health-conscious.. nv eat too much fatty or fried food, going joggin every weekend at macritchie.. going to parks with his kids and us, eating lots of fruits after every dinner.. i still remember staying overnight at his place once, and he brought myself and his kids out before dinner to choose the fruits we wanted to eat.. i let the kids choose.. and we had a fruit spread after dinner.. very satisfying.

why, juz because of a stupid mosquito.. did he juz go.. i think without the mosquito he could have been here with us, and nothing drastic happening except a major scare caused by his hospitalisation..

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Ytd went for suigu's cremation.. at Mandai crematorium.. And then today we went to cast his ashes into the sea.

The past few days hv been very sad, attending the wake til Sunday, then cremation on monday then casting of ashes today.. I promised myself to try not to cry.. and i also promised him.. but yesterday.. during the viewing of the coffin.. when his body was sent into the cremation room, da yi and hia yi-yi became very very hysterical, keep crying.. i was already like holding back my tears and all that.. but seeing them in that state juz released the tap and den i cried.. i held back my tears when the eulogies was read out by my bro and my godbro who's also his godson.. i numbed myself, imagined shutting my emotions into this room within myself, so i can keep my tears private.. already such a sad event.. if i cry will make it worst..

i miss my uncle so much since saturday, cos i know i wont ever see him again.. he was such a nice man, always there to comfort us, to make us happy, to share happiness and sorrows.. he often called us out to go east coast park, west coast park, botanic gardens, seletar reservoir, etc etc.. and eat food together at nice places, go outings.. but when he called us out the past times.. sometimes i wasnt even there cos i didnt feel like going, cos i felt lazy.. and i didnt go for the japan trip with his family and xun and sheng in early 2006.. only went for the korea trip last year. and December also.. juz 4 months ago only!! i still have our group fotos, uncle looked really happy. haiz. i dont have a personal foto with him! sad.

i felt a pang when we passed by the sembawang food ctr on our way to the crematorium ytd.. my family and his ate there once or twice.. and we bot some home-made bread from an olden-times bakery there.. and he knew i liked the bread.. cos it's sweeter den the usual gardenia i eat.. he used to make special trips down there jzu to buy bread for our family.. he gave us fishes, flowers etc which my mum loved.. and juz few weeks back he gave us some twisty bamboo thingy and the 5 stalks are standing in our transparent plastic vertical pot..

his death is so sudden i still cant believe he's gone. i really regret not spending more time with him and his family in the past, now only left his family. i really need to treasure all the people around mi.. i nv thought i would ever have to feel the tremendous regret that im feeling now.. now is too late to even say sorry for the times i didnt go out with him, he's not hear to talk to me anymore, not here to play games with me, not here for me to hear his voice. and theres this something that i know he will like, cos we like similar things.. now i cant give it to him..

i hope everyone's okay now.. esp ah gong and ah ma.. since they didnt attend the cremation and the 'sea burial'.. they looked so sad.. i couldnt really tell what ah gong felt cos he looked the same.. i think he was juz being strong. we all need to be strong cos after all life is juz a dream.. our bodies are juz shells of our former selves.. i looked at him in the coffin, it didnt look liek the suigu i remember at all.. but the memories will always be here inside my mind

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• Aquarian-Piscean
• Split-personality
• Highly random
• Loves to play with words
• Easily amused
• Stony face
• Typical characteristics of a person who loves red - need I say more??
• Singapore
• Would rather be alone than with people she dislikes
• Gets along easily with people sometimes

Wishes

• To be a normal human being
• To adapt more easily
• To integrate into society without conforming
• To be successful in all aspects
• To be an all-rounder

Interests - what activities I'm interested in -

• Reading
• Supernatural
• Watching movies
• Inline-skating
• Surfing the net
• Listening to music
• Going out with friends
• Chatting with friends
• Philosophizing - tho ppl might think it's mundane
• Engaging in intellectual conversations with intellectuals
• Psychology - knowing more about the human mind

Hobbies - what I always do -

• Daydreaming
• Surfing the net
• Listening to music
• Chatting with friends
• Sometimes just being alone with myself

Loves

• Death Note
• Ryuzaki a.k.a L
• Matsukun
• Nakatsu
• Toma
• things that glow/light up in the dark
• Red
• Bright colours
• Horror movies
• Pirates of the Carribean 1 & 2
Gor Gor
• Dogs esp. Siberian Husky
• Captn Jack Sparrow
• Ice cream
• Chocolate
• Tomato Juice
• Cheese cake
• Reflecting

Likes

• Gore
• Being alone to enjoy my peace
• Reflecting

Hates

• Ppl who yell
• Fakes
• Liars
• Attention-seekers
• Noisy ppl
• Loud-mouths
• Backstabbers
• Unreasonable ppl
• Irresponsible ppl
• Hypocrites (practice what you preach!)
• Act-like-they-know-it-alls
• Fish (whether ornamental or those served as 'food')
• Cake
• Cream
• Dull colours
• Fear

Material Wants

• new BIG sling bag
• L photobook (out in Kinokuniya)
• new Nokia 6280
• Siberian Husky
• Skate Bagpack
• Ski apparatus
• that cool Japanese clamshell phone they always use in dramas
• anything that glows/lights up
• Etnies Skater shoes

• Dramas (DVD with Eng subs) *Honey & Clover
*Hanazakari no kimitachi e
*Akihabara@Deep
• Musicals (DVD with Eng subs) *Cat in Red Boots

Message(s) of the Year

• I LOVE TOMA.
• I LOVE CAT IN RED BOOTS.
• I LOVE 'MELTING SNOW' AND 'THE WORLD'.
• I LOVE the song 'American Pie'!!
• I LOVE Angel of Music, Phantom of the Opera
• I want to ski again
• I want to try snowboarding
• I am not HIGHLY intelligent. I dont have a MENSA mind so back off, demanding ppl!
• I hate school.
• I WANT TOMA STUFF!!
• I want to go to Japan
• I want to learn Japanese

Well of WORDS




Blogroll

Friends
Alex
Edmund
Elaine
Jameslie
Joey
KangYong
Melvin
Mushroom
Pennycake

Relatives
Kuek Jia Xuan
Kuek Jing
Phina
Tang
WeiLing
YiLing

New Blog
lawliett79

Links

Movies
fearlessthemovie
Fellowship of the Ring quotes
The Two Towers quotes
Curse of the Black Pearl quotes
Dead Man's Chest quotes

At World's End quotes

Toma
Cat in Red Boots


Leisure Reading Sites
Archie Comics
Baby Blues
FanFiction (Phantom of the Opera/Harry Potter - under 'Books')

The Artsy
The Artist on Blog


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  • Important Links

    L change the world : November 25, 2007 MUST READ
    Death Note 3 : January 13, 2008 MUST READ

    Favourite Music

    All Leslie's songs
    Kiss Me by Sixpence None the Richer

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