I feel so fucked-up. Nothing in my life is going right.
I feel the world has turned against me. Or maybe, just maybe, I have turned my back against the rest of the world. Ther's no difference.. Cos either way I am still at odds with the world.
I wish all these would stop. I wish I could get back all the faith that I had a long long time ago. The belief that nothing in the world can or will go wrong, the belief that all's right in life.
I dont know if all this is because I have forsaken the path of Christ. I no longer say myself as a Christian. Even in the past, I did not rely on God, I didnt have faith in him.
There was just no way out then; I couldnt find the faith. It was never really there in the first place. I hope I will find the light at the end of the tunnel soon. This sucks. Fuck.
Am a girl who generally acts nice in public, but inside her head, she probably thinks you're a waste of life. And that's why she's quiet.
The One & ONLI evil~ being
• 20
• Aquarian-Piscean
• Split-personality
• Highly random
• Loves to play with words
• Easily amused
• Stony face
• Typical characteristics of a person who loves red - need I say more??
• Singapore
• Would rather be alone than with people she dislikes
• Gets along easily with people sometimes
Wishes
• To be a normal human being
• To adapt more easily
• To integrate into society without conforming
• To be successful in all aspects
• To be an all-rounder
Interests - what activities I'm interested in -
• Reading
• Supernatural
• Watching movies
• Inline-skating
• Surfing the net
• Listening to music
• Going out with friends
• Chatting with friends
• Philosophizing - tho ppl might think it's mundane
• Engaging in intellectual conversations with intellectuals
• Psychology - knowing more about the human mind
Hobbies - what I always do -
• Daydreaming
• Surfing the net
• Listening to music
• Chatting with friends
• Sometimes just being alone with myself
Loves
• Death Note
• Ryuzaki a.k.a L
• Matsukun
• Nakatsu
• Toma
• things that glow/light up in the dark
• Red
• Bright colours
• Horror movies
• Pirates of the Carribean 1 & 2
• Gor Gor
• Dogs esp. Siberian Husky
• Captn Jack Sparrow
• Ice cream
• Chocolate
• Tomato Juice
• Cheese cake
• Reflecting
Likes
• Gore
• Being alone to enjoy my peace
• Reflecting
Hates
• Ppl who yell
• Fakes
• Liars
• Attention-seekers
• Noisy ppl
• Loud-mouths
• Backstabbers
• Unreasonable ppl
• Irresponsible ppl
• Hypocrites (practice what you preach!)
• Act-like-they-know-it-alls
• Fish (whether ornamental or those served as 'food')
• Cake
• Cream
• Dull colours
• Fear
Material Wants
• new BIG sling bag
• L photobook (out in Kinokuniya)
• new Nokia 6280
• Siberian Husky
• Skate Bagpack
• Ski apparatus
• that cool Japanese clamshell phone they always use in dramas
• anything that glows/lights up
• Etnies Skater shoes
• Dramas (DVD with Eng subs)
*Honey & Clover
*Hanazakari no kimitachi e
*Akihabara@Deep
• Musicals (DVD with Eng subs)
*Cat in Red Boots
Message(s) of the Year
• I LOVE TOMA.
• I LOVE CAT IN RED BOOTS.
• I LOVE 'MELTING SNOW' AND 'THE WORLD'.
• I LOVE the song 'American Pie'!!
• I LOVE Angel of Music, Phantom of the Opera
• I want to ski again
• I want to try snowboarding
• I am not HIGHLY intelligent. I dont have a MENSA mind so back off, demanding ppl!
• I hate school.
• I WANT TOMA STUFF!!
• I want to go to Japan
• I want to learn Japanese
